He tries to just focus on the feel of Carver's hand. It feels good, but he's too aware of the eyes on them, of the smirks. He's too aware of who this is and he can't get hard when he's aware of all that.

So he rolls them, bracing himself over Carver, face down close against Carver's neck. And he just breathes and it's easier that way to ignore, to pretend.